Real Fear
I got an e-mail from my grandfather yesturaday and attached to it were five pictures or a B-17 bomer the kind that he flew in WW2. Aparently there are only about 10 or 12 left in the United States that are flyable and one of them just got sent to Corpus Christi where my granfolks live. My grandfather was able to fo to the air feild were it wa being held and give a tour to my grandmother. In his letter he told me of the flashbacks that he had. to the feelings of utter fear and loneliness that the shadow of this great machine drew from his memory. It got me thinking that none of us have ever been in a situation were we feel such total fear that we forget about those that we love and find ourselves alone in the middle of a battle feild. When i went back to Texas over the spring break i drove my g'paw to the pharmacy and on the way he asked me what i was afriad of and on a scale on one to ten how much courage did i think that i had. I didnt know how to awnser him and now i wish i would have said something along the lines of " i would have to say that out of the things that i have been tested the fears and the scares that i have had i would rate my self a 6. I didnt abandon ship but sometimes i thought about it and i wanted to. but compared to what my grandfather and countless others went through during a war any war be it between nations or individuals i have the courage of a mouse. My gandpa said two things in his e-mail that caught me off gaurd the first being " I odd it feels to be a living fossil already". and the second being what this blog is written on is "I was reminded at how lonely it could be when things got hot and heavy. I did have a few flash backs, mainly what real fear feels like". Anyway i just thought i would share that with you guys. i am done now.
posted by Nikki @ 10:05 PM
4 Comments:
Wow, that's such a good question to ask someone. I don't know what my courage ranking is, or the time that I was most afraid. I'll have to think about it. I think you're higher than a six though. I mean no one is a ten but you're up there I think. I've always found you very brave. And on a lighter note, your grandpa said hot and heavy which is an awesome terminology from Seinfeld. Speaking of, on the WB they had a call in contest about Seinfeld and the question was so lame: it was what is Kramer's first name. I was tempted to call.
you so should have. i thought that it was very amusing that my g'paw had said hot and heavy. he makes me laugh. so to folloow up to ariannas comment. what does veryone think there level of courage is??
I think in the face of fear I handle myself just fine but afterwards I'm a blubbering mess. A breakdown takes an hour or two to come on.
Hmm... I'll give myself a 4 I guess. I certainly hope its higher than that but I'm not taking any chances. Besides, 4 is my favorite number.
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